There’s this guy I know, who I used to find incredibly attractive.
Since, he changed a lot. Changed his hair, his clothes, the way he talks, even his standards. He’s a completely different person. He’s in my dreams all the time, but as the way he was, not the way he is. He was this near perfect person that my mind constantly reminds me of - but he doesn’t exist anymore. He’s not even real outside my sub-conscious. I haven’t even cared for him in years, but my dreams constantly remind me of this person who used to be there, but isn’t.
I don’t know if this has a point, but it constantly trips me out that people - fully functional, complex people - can live in our memories. After death, our memories don’t die. We remember how they were at a time, we remember moments, we miss these people who, at present, don’t even exist. They aren’t real at all. There’s also this idea that we create others to be something they’re not. Some of the things girls have said to me, I’ve thought, “man, I’d hate me too if I saw me the way you do.” because to them I’m a totally different person. Their perspective changes every one of my motives to fit this negative image they have, and they don’t even ask any questions about my actions, they just accept it and make it relate to how they specifically see me -but it’s not actually me.
Imagine if, in death, change or loss, we lost those people too. The old people, the ones that aren’t real outside our heads, or the ones we change based on our own bias. Imagine if we saw the truth in other people. We can’t, though. It’s impossible. I think what I’m getting at is that our perspectives of other people are totally twisted by our own bias, our own emotions and the way we actually want to see people, not who they really are. Think about it, do you know the people around you, or do you know how you want to see them? Keep in mind that what you ‘want’ might not always be positive.
We also have a habit of making excuses for people. We’ll make up motives or emotions that make sense as justifications, but they aren’t necessarily correct, they just make the most sense to us. ‘You did this because you’re jealous’ or ‘you did that because you’re angry’ isn’t always true, no matter how many people agree with it. 500 people could agree on one motive for a person, but we’ll never know if it’s correct, only that specific persons sub-conscious will. You might not even know yourself, because you apply these justifications to the things that you do that seem right, but aren’t necessarily. Only our sub-conscious knows, and I wonder if our sub-conscious is hidden from us for a reason; what if our real motives are so primal and brutal that we’re ultimately still just animals.
We are limited by our perceptions, our emotions and our perspectives. While we’re human, we cannot truly know another person. If only we could find a way to observe outside of ourselves. To observe entirely without personal bias, rather than having our minds skew the truth.
